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It's hard to accept, but you can't change the past. You can't go back and manipulate things to the way you wanted them to happen. Knowing that things were meant to happen. Knowing that each day you will learn something so that you keep growing to be a better person. How much mistake you did in your past life time? Which one you did and it makes you never forget about what had you done even time flies?

People used to say a mistake is simply another way of doing things. 

My thinking is like "I never regret anythings that has happened to me in my life, whether it is making a bad choice, deciding to do something i should not have, saying the wrong thing or not doing something i should have done, because all of these things have given me the knowledge i have today and helped make me who i am today and that is one thing i will never regret."

But, there is always one you will never forget, the worse you never thought it was. The worsen mistake i made. I know sorry doesn't make any differences and i am not apologizing. And i not want to explain or doing anything to make it better. What is broken is broken, and i'd rather remember it as it was at its best mend it. 

There is a nice girl; she tried real hard to protect me, went against the world because of me, she had faith in me even i treated her badly, she defend for me with all she has and what she has no. I do appreciate it, serious. Undeniable, i broke her heart, and what i did is not forgivable i know. Because of me, you don't even bother about yourself, don't care about how people talked about you. No thing i can do or say to go back that moment to change the mistake i did, to change her or mine feeling now. I do feel bad of all the thing i did to her. I never forget how her tears drop from her watery eyes, which makes me feel even more bad. Not to say regret, cause saying i am regret doesn't change how she felt that time. 

You're born, you die and in between you did a lot of mistakes. No one will ever blame you of doing mistake, cause we all did mistake. But remember never do the mistake that makes people and yourself feel bad! Life is like a rope, twined in all its complexities and yet weaved into one marvelous stream. Last but not least, i should and i owe you one. Even tho it means nothing:

I am sorry