Space Bound

To travel is better than arrive.

2011-08-20T06:38:00.001+08:00

I used to think that there is only one path

to take to where you want to get to be in life.

But if you choose that one path,

that doesnt mean you have to abandon all the other ones.

I realize that it's actually what happens along the way,

that counts.

The stumbles and the falls.

And the friendship.

It's the journey, not the destination.

I guess you just gonna trust that the future will work itself out like it's supposed to.

Despair

2011-07-10T19:21:00.000+08:00

I restore myself when I'm alone.

Untitled

2011-05-30T04:50:00.007+08:00

It's hard to accept, but you can't change the past. You can't go back and manipulate things to the way you wanted them to happen. Knowing that things were meant to happen. Knowing that each day you will learn something so that you keep growing to be a better person. How much mistake you did in your past life time? Which one you did and it makes you never forget about what had you done even time flies?

People used to say a mistake is simply another way of doing things.

My thinking is like "I never regret anythings that has happened to me in my life, whether it is making a bad choice, deciding to do something i should not have, saying the wrong thing or not doing something i should have done, because all of these things have given me the knowledge i have today and helped make me who i am today and that is one thing i will never regret."

But, there is always one you will never forget, the worse you never thought it was. The worsen mistake i made. I know sorry doesn't make any differences and i am not apologizing. And i not want to explain or doing anything to make it better. What is broken is broken, and i'd rather remember it as it was at its best mend it.

There is a nice girl; she tried real hard to protect me, went against the world because of me, she had faith in me even i treated her badly, she defend for me with all she has and what she has no. I do appreciate it, serious. Undeniable, i broke her heart, and what i did is not forgivable i know. Because of me, you don't even bother about yourself, don't care about how people talked about you. No thing i can do or say to go back that moment to change the mistake i did, to change her or mine feeling now. I do feel bad of all the thing i did to her. I never forget how her tears drop from her watery eyes, which makes me feel even more bad. Not to say regret, cause saying i am regret doesn't change how she felt that time.

You're born, you die and in between you did a lot of mistakes. No one will ever blame you of doing mistake, cause we all did mistake. But remember never do the mistake that makes people and yourself feel bad! Life is like a rope, twined in all its complexities and yet weaved into one marvelous stream. Last but not least, i should and i owe you one. Even tho it means nothing:

I am sorry

被污染了

2011-05-25T05:54:00.002+08:00

思想，思想其实是一个纯洁的伟大发现。
偏偏，有了思想就会有现实，
而现实就会遮掩思想。
很多人们都有自己的思想与现实。
所谓的思想是对每一件事情的看法与观念。
所谓的现实是每个人对每一件大小事情的知识与认识。

现在的社会里，大部份的人已被别人的现实污染了。
很多人见了别人见到的东西，听了别人的思想觉得蛮cool的，
就把它归纳为自己生活中的现实，有了跟别人一样的现实概念，
而忘了自己对自己的思想的“知识”与“认识”。
没错，听于别人的意见是好的；
但，试问是否也把自己的知识与认识加于其中？

每一个人对同一样事情的知识与认识都不一样，

原因是因为有的人见识多，有些人较少。

变成了每一个人对同一件事情的现实与思想都少许差别。

这样说吧，

在有些人眼中或许这样是错，但在有些人眼中这样是对。

这些都是自己对某种事情的经历不一样，所以就会有自己的思想与现实概念。

比如说，
我们都会庆祝二月十四号的情人节。
每一对情侣都过着快快乐乐的情人节，
大家都会给对方情人节礼物，就为了那一天是二月十四号。
问一问，二月十四号；
为什么二月十四号是情人节？为什么会有情人节？
为什么会有情人节卡？
十个人当中有多少人懂得这一天的历史，这一天的意义？

还是，在电视节目里见到情侣是这样庆祝情人节
所以有伴的都应该这样做？
或是，见到朋友们庆祝就跟着潮流的去做？
送花，送巧克力，等等。
再问一问，自己对“情人节”的知识与认识是多少？
是否，自己的思想与现实被他人的愚昧的思想与现实污染了？

二月十四号是一个意义重大的日子，
有情人的，有兴趣的，
Google一下吧，
或许会发现自己其实过了好多个现在所谓的“情人节”。
其实情人节不只是纯粹的；
吃餐好的，送礼物，送花，送巧克力。

:)

2011-05-11T00:03:00.001+08:00

Life isn't easy.

When trouble approaches, the only thing you can do is bear with it.

People used to say problem and trouble always comes to them, but for me the only enemy of all of those is ourselves.

As long as we can master ourselves we can master all the devil and angel.

Perfect life doesnt mean it is good, imperfect life doesnt mean it is bad.
The matter thing is learn from both.

The lesson i learnt from these days is

"修合无人见，存心有天知".

We dont need people to understand us,

as long as we do the best for others.

2011-05-07T12:31:00.000+08:00

Yes, I am.

Ami Pour La Vie

2011-04-28T21:48:00.001+08:00

As i said,

The bad news is time flies,

The good news is you're the pilot.

Treasure.

Belief

2011-04-22T06:22:00.000+08:00

We keep looking for magic formulas that will make it manifest. We put our faith in images, objects and rituals. We give them the power to influence our lives, to save us from bad luck, to guide and heal us.
In reality, this kind of faith is challenging because it requires your full belief. That can be scary if you're the type who doesn't like to put all your eggs in one basket. Faith requires that you fully believe that those eggs will not break or be wasted, and your only guarantee is your faith.

I still remember the story that i heard in church long time ago, about the lady who touched the robe of Jesus as he was walking on the road, surrounded by his followers? He turned around and asked who had touched his robe, and the woman admitted to it. Her asked her why, and she said that in her mind, she really believed that if she touched him, she would be healed. Jesus told her that her faith had healed her. Think about that. She thought that she was healed because she touched him. He told her that she was healed because she believed that she could be healed. It just recall me of the story when my mind comes to this.

Sometime when we are lost, we might just need to have faith in it that it will be better.
That's the way it is with faith. If you truly believe, it will be so.

拼什么？

2011-04-21T03:50:00.001+08:00

十年后，我是什么？人家说世界末日要到了。我问自己，如果是真的我会怎样。
十年前，我是一个什么都不懂的孩子。我才12岁，到了太平上了中学。

还记得我是个肥肥矮矮的小子，做什么事都没信心。

做什么都会怕，都没有自信。

到了现在，我有了自信，信心，拼了自己，拼了自己的生活。

今天，我终于病倒了。在家整天，在床上翻来翻去，想了又想。

比起以前，现在也算是稳定，都有稳定的朋友，都有稳定的日子。

读书都快四年了，再过一个学期我会在哪里？我又会居住哪里？

我上半辈子庆幸的是遇到好朋友，都学会很多东西。

现在想一想，朋友可以说是上天给我们的礼物吧。

时不时我都问一问自己，我在拼什么，在意什么最多。

有时，我懂；有时，我不懂。

Suspended

2011-04-01T02:09:00.000+08:00

All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players;
They have their exits and their entrances.

What could we done in this time?
Yes, a lot!
The matter thing is what we demand for.

A lie can run around the world six times while the truth is still trying to put on its pants.
Yes, i have a higher and grander standard of principle than George Washington. He could not lie; I can, but i wont.
Because, lying rides upon debt's back.

I understand the "Nothing begins, and nothing ends".
That is why i understand, there is no coming to consciousness without pain.
Some people born wonderful, everything goes smooth.
However you cant be brave, if you've only had wonderful things happen to you.

He who makes a beast of himself gets rid of the pain of being a man.

When everybody grows

2011-02-02T05:50:00.000+08:00

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasnt supposed to let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken more than one time, and it's getting harder and harder every time. You will break hearts too, and you have to remember how it felt when yours was broken. You will fight with your best friend. You will blame a new love for things an old love did. You will cry because time is passing by too fast and eventually you will lose someone you care. So take as many pictures and laugh like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you won't get back.

Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind dont matter and those who matter dont mind
Dont be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or sad is a second of happiness you can never get back in this life.

Deep down, everyone wants to believe they can be hardcore. But being hardcore isn't just about being tough. It’s about acceptance. Sometimes you have to give yourself permission to not be hardcore for once. You don’t have to be tough every minute of every day. It’s okay to let down your guard. In fact there are moments when it’s the best thing you can possibly do... as long as you choose your moments wisely.

In life, only one thing is certain, apart from death and taxes. No matter how hard you try, no matter how good your intentions, you are going to make mistakes. You’re going to hurt people. You’re going to get hurt. And if you ever want to recover.. there’s really only one thing you can say.

The truth is painful. Indeed, nobody wants to hear it or tell it, especially when it hits close to beloved. Sometimes we tell the truth because the truth is all we have to give. Sometimes we tell the truth because we need to say it out loud to hear it for ourselves. And sometimes we tell the truth because we just can't help ourselves. Sometimes, we tell them because we owe them at least that much.

In the end, its not going to matter how many breath you took, but how many moment took your breath away.

这辈子

2011-01-08T04:05:00.003+08:00

生不带来死不带去的一辈子。

我们在亲人的欢笑声中诞生，又在亲人的悲伤中离去。

而这一切我们都不知道，我们无法控制自己的生与死，

但我们应庆幸自己拥有了这一辈子。

我们不能白来这一遭。

所以让我们从快乐开始！

做你想做的，爱你想爱的。

做错了，不必后悔，不要抱怨，世上没有完美的人。

跌倒了，爬起来重新来。

不经风雨怎能见彩虹，相信下次会走得更稳。

开心也是一天，不开心也是一天，干吗不开心呢？

做错事不可以重来的一辈子；

碎了的心难再愈合的一辈子；

过了今天就不会再有另一个今天的一辈子；

一分一秒都不会再回头的一辈子。

为什么不好好珍惜眼前，为什么还要拼命地自怨自艾，痛苦追悔呢？

我们可以淡然面对，也可以积极的把握。

当你看不开、

当你春风得意、

当你愤愤不平、

当你深陷痛苦中请想想它，不管怎么样，

总是幸运的拥有了这一辈子。

知足就好别后悔

Silent Night

2011-01-03T15:30:00.003+08:00

Sitting at balcony,
Staring at the skies,
Looking at the stars,
As the time pass by.

The skies get darker,
Airplanes fly to their destiny,
The stars shine bright,
I smiled to myself.

Its getting late,

I stand and stretch,

Looking around

I love the silent night.

No sounds around,
No one to be found,
All alone in the night,
In a peaceful night.

Night, when words fade and things come alive,
when the miserable analysis of day is done,
and all that is truly important becomes whole and sound again,
his fragmentary self and grows with the calm of a tree.

The beloved.

坦诚是错

2010-11-10T03:55:00.004+08:00

人会一天一天的改变，有些人喜欢停留在他们走到的那个脚步。人有很多种，遇到了谁就可能变成什么样的人。
当你觉得你的生活是快乐的，谁会知道其实你只不过被蒙在鼓里？
当你觉得你的生活是不快乐的，是他人想把你搞到不快乐还是你自己不快乐吗？

曾经有个人对我说：“做人不要太坦诚，否则你会失望”，
过了一段日子，我深深体会了你说的这句话。
我也顺道问了自己一道问题，
“做人坦诚有错吗？”
经过了种种因素，种种事情，
答案是：“有！”

在生活里，要学会做人。
没有人会理会你是否坦诚，
他们只在乎你在他们眼里是一个怎样的人？
是否坦诚只不过是你的一霜情愿。
有些事情就像，“游戏规则一样，但是球员不再是你。”

有些人存心骗你，躲也躲不过，避也避不过。

该发生总会发生，

阻止它，你只不过是延迟它。

不该发生的，

你勉强的让它发生，你只会被人说“孩子，勉强没幸福”。

无可否认人是自私的，就从来别妄想成为一个不自私的人，
因为失望的只会是你自己，不是他们。
更加别妄想他人会做与你做同样的东西，
因为我是我，你是你，他是他。

人生无常，
今天不知明天事。

Pass VS Future

2010-11-08T22:10:00.001+08:00

Do you know folks who love to sit around and discuss all the negative things in their life, your life, the world, or even an imaginary one like soap operas and dramas? Look at their lives and see what it looks like.

Energy attracts like energy, and what you invest in is what is attracted back. It is really a simple formula, and it works perfectly no matter how you alone choose to use it.

Think of life as one big broadcast of FM radio stations. You can tune into any you like, anytime you like. The entire frequency band is available to you.
BUT, would you always tune into the station you despise?
WHY NOT? Ahh~ Because you dont like them. Your life operates the same way.

As odd as it sounds, sometimes we're comfortable being comfortable. Er, i dont mean that we enjoy the misery, but ut may be easier to stay in a familiar and bad situation than it is to change.

Change takes courage. Change takes faith.
Majority, change means venturing into the unknown, and that can be even scarier than where we are now, even if our life is miserable where we are now.

If you life is miserable, you think almost everything about it is bad. You hate your job, you're dissatisfied with the way you look, you're tired of your friends, you're even sick of where you live.
In short, life stinks. Im not saying that you can instantly get a happy, problem-less life just by changing your thought and thinking, but you can improve things if you accept one simple truth:

"I am not powerless"

Somtimes the most important change is bring able to look at things in a new way. I know that when i stopped beating myself up, my life began to improve in a dramatic way. I can do more be better, and be happier than i'd been in the past.

现实与幻觉

2010-09-26T19:33:00.003+08:00

每一个人都依靠自己的知识和认识，
却又被其所束缚，
还将这些称之为现实。
但知识和认识是非常暧昧的东西，
那个现实也许不过知识幻觉。
人们都活在自我意识之中。
不这样认为吗？

Never lie, steal, cheat or drink.

2010-09-24T17:01:00.002+08:00

But!

If you must lie,

lie in the arm of the one you love.

If you must steal,

steal away from bad company.

If you must cheat,

cheat death.

If you must drink,

drink in the moment that take your breath away.

轨道

2010-09-10T04:31:00.010+08:00

在人生里我們都會遇到很多的挫折。
是於否我們都會犯下很多我們不知的錯誤。
有時候搞不清楚甚麼事錯於對，

我有一個朋友說，無論你做甚麼都會有人批評你。
想了又想，駕車和人生沒差。

人生有时候就像你驾一辆车一样。

有时候，驾车会看看旁边镜。

就好像在人生，我们都要学会看看你的身边有谁关心你。

有时候，驾车会看看望后镜，

就好像在人生，我们要看看后面有谁在等着你，

会是你的避风港。

有时候，驾错路，

就像人生走错路，

就要学会进reverse gear，或者是转弯。

不要sei ngao yat bin geng，不要直直冲。

有时候，你车子里会有人陪你。

或是车子里的人的目的地跟你一样。

在人生里，

就像身边的每一个朋友的陪伴。

就像人生里的朋友，大家都有同一个目标。

有时候，你会一个人驾车。

当一个人时，你会想一想你想载谁。

当一个人时，你会想一想你想跟谁聊天。

就像在人生里，

当你一个人，你会想找人聊天。

会想要谁来陪你。

有时候，驾车路上没车。

你会很快到达目的地。

就像你的人生顺顺利利，没有挫折，

你很快成功。

有时候，驾的车较差，驾的比别人慢。

没关系，慢慢来。一样能到达目的地。

就像人生，要有耐心，一步一步来。

有时候车子会抛瞄，或是发生意外。

就好像人生遇到挫折，遇到更大的挫折。

车修好，人生也继续。

有时候，车子里想要载谁，去那里。

就像人生你想要跟谁度过你想要的生活。

有时候，车子撞坏了。

没关系，我们都会想要买一辆。

人生遇到最惨的时候，什么也输光。

没关系，重新再来。

有时候，驾车久了，想歇一歇。

就像人生里，想去一去旅行散散心。

虽说有些是事，无能为力。

但是我们都不是都拥有选择的权力吗？

别放弃做选择的权力。

每个人都驾着不一样的车子，

每一个人都拥有着不一样的人生，

驾什么车，怎样驾车。

拥有什么生活，怎样面对你的生活。

S.M.I.L.E

2010-08-26T22:56:00.002+08:00

You don't always have
to pretend to be strong,
There's no need to prove all the time that
everything is going well.
You shouldn't be concerned about
what other people are thinking,
cry if you need to,
it's good to cry out all your tears
because only then
will you be able to smile again.

Be Tough

2010-08-22T02:22:00.000+08:00

Somtime is okay to be weak,

as long as we know what to do.

Remember!

What doesn't kill you,

can only make you stronger.

2010-08-21T11:43:00.002+08:00

Are you happy?

or you just force yourself to be happy?

He is the one you need or you love?

A.YES B.NO

2010-08-20T04:35:00.000+08:00

I MISS HER & I LOVE HER

It is not question.

2010-08-16T13:56:00.008+08:00

Centuries have passed by, relationship have bloomed and so has love. But there is exactly no one can give the proper definition of love, no class of learning about love. You have to go all the way to find what it is. So now, How do YOU define love? Yea, some say it's mysterious, some say it's indescribable, some say it's not love when you can talk about love, some say it's complex, some say love is imaginary, some say love is immutable, some say love is immeasurable, and some say its undefinable.

So what about YOU?

Without further ado,let me make myself very clear, i know love, but i admit that i do not know how to love in a correct way. Yes, you can call me the good speaker if you want and i don't mind, but you ain't able to control what i'm going to speak. Although i do not know how to love, but i did know love. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it is not something to show off and don't be proud in love, be humble! Do not take anyone as granted. If you have her/him please love with your heart, not envy, not proud of having her/him, not controlling, not limitation. Dude, love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. remember that! Keep that in your mind. As i know, love is all about always protects, always trusts, always hopes, and must have faith in yourself and her/him to work love out. No deceive, no complain, believe yourself, yes! Believe her/him, yes! Have some faith in yourself, she/he loves you for you are something that people are not.

I heard a love story from what people told me. You know what? I did the discrimination on you when i know what you did. You love her/him? Or just want her/him? Be true to yourself. Accept who you are, love who are you. We can cheat whoever in this planet but not ourself.

For all the readers for this post, this is a sharing post. If you feel anger on me, just right before you angry, take couple sec and think about why you anger on me. You know who you are, you know what you anger for. If you think what i say is bullshit. Yea, or even you will think that "Fuck up! Laze! You are not qualified to discriminate others as you are totally SUCK" when you reading the forth paragraph. Yea, expected! There must be some people like you in this planet. You hate me. Yeah, sit up, i tell you who i be, i make you hate me cause you ain't me. Of course i know, the words i inked on this screen are not right in whole, or maybe is totally a "X". Yes, you can call it BULLSHIT. But you are reading the thing that you defined it as bullshit.

Oh yes yes i know, no one has the right to judge or talk about whoever about their love. I'm not judging whoever in this post. If you feel that i am talking about YOU, so be it! I say what i want say, i mean all the things i say. Don't be mean.

Peace people, i'm so done!

我不是好人

2010-08-01T00:36:00.007+08:00

身为男人是要有承担，

承担应该承担的东西。

该有应该承担的东西，

放弃应该放弃的东西。

人很多时候就是不懂得珍惜自己所拥有的东西。

当失去了才知道那样东西的重要性。

很多时候我都以为自己输得起，

就是从来不会以为自己会受伤，

我才不会珍惜。

因此伤了很多人，

失去了很多东西。

当了解自己已经是一个输不起的人的时候，

心自然的变弱了。

因为输过了，

也后悔了。

因为拥有了，

也失去了。

因为爱了，

所以哭了。

后悔了事情也不会改变，

只留下了遗憾。
失去的东西再也不会在我眼前，
只好回味那时的“拥有”。
哭过了，
就擦掉眼泪，再继续奋斗！

静静的期待那天的到来，

也许不会再有明天。

那如果有明天，

明天一定会更好。

How About Sometimes?

2010-07-27T08:09:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, life is miserable.

Words might not be able to tell it all.

Its a Raining Good and Wonderful Morning.

Sometimes, i look up to the sky and wonder.

Sometimes, i assure it is right.

Sometimes, i'm confused.

Sometimes, i feel like the world should be different.

Sometimes, i just think there's a missing pieces.

Sometimes, sorry is a gift.

Sometimes, sorry makes a lift.

Sometimes, my heart is so full it could burt.

Sometimes, A doesn't come before B.

Sometimes, 1 plus 1 doesn't equals 2.

Sometimes, i question myself for something.

But guess what..

It just like be that sometimes!

Trip to Cameron Highland

2010-07-10T01:10:00.004+08:00

Many a time i forget to admire the beauty of Malaysia. Malaysia's indeed a beautiful county with every corner looking different, a culture of its own and at times. The weather slightly differs in every part of Malaysia, being a tropical country. The feeling is kind of nice going places with awesome people, which makes the journey more enjoyable, and relax. Inner part of mine, its extremely tired yet its worth and fun!

Here we are, Cameron Highland.

Awesome people.

Wine always comes with great place. =)

Awww~ I love rainy day.

Life full of challenges,

All we have to do is RELAX.

Cameron Day. ❤

I love cold, rainy weather.

2010-06-17T07:24:00.001+08:00

Weather forecast for today : dark.

Rain is refreshing, sitting at a corner.
I was in love with the whole world and all that lived in its rainy arms.

Having a cigarette, looking up to sky.

Rainy mood, complicated.

Life is not about waiting for the storms to pass,

it's about learning how to dance in the rain.

One thing we can do in rainy day is, let it rain and enjoy it.

Rainy day drives me peace and calm.

Study Life

2010-05-30T02:35:00.007+08:00

"Welcome to a world where everyone talks about each other. Everyone lies. Everyone tries to be something they're not. Friendships that have lasted years are broken. Believe it or not, this world actually exists. I hate all the mushy love quotes. I hate the couples walking down the hallways of college. I hate the love songs, and love letters, and girls who cry when their boyfriend is out of college for the day. It's college, for goodness sake! The couples won't last, and the songs won't stay popular. You'll forget the quotes, and lost the letters. You don't go to college to find your husband, you go to find your bridesmaids.

Your best friend becomes a BITCH.

Your boyfriend becomes a PRICK.

Homework goes in the TRASH.

Soda becomes Beer.

Gum becomes POT.

Bike becomes CAR.

Lollipop becomes CIGARETTES.

Lipgloss becomes MAKEUP.

French kissing becomes SEX.

Walking through the foyer of college is quite similar to walking through a battle field. They all seem to have the most friends and the most people to say hello to walking through the foyer. Well, life isn't what it seems. Most of those people just surround themselves with other because they are too deathly scared to be alone. They are so scared that they aren't really friends, they just pretend, because without those people they would be nothing.Somewhere between the procrastination, the homework, the incessant forwards, the friendship, and the called to each other complaining about crushes; Pretending to be happy doesnt make you happy, pretending to be smart doesnt make you smart and pretending you're nothing doesnt make you really nothing. You cant control falling in love, and that you cant make yourself fall in love. I learned that i can love, i learned that it's okay to mess up, and it's okay to ask for help, i learned that sometimes the thing you want most you just can't have, i learned that the greatest thing about college isn't the parties or the drinking or hook-ups. It's the friendship which means taking chances. I leaned that sometimes the thing we want to forget are the things which we most need to talk about. Basically, i just learned that my friends, both old and new, are the most important people to me in the world. Without them, i wouldn't be who i am today. Thanks all my friends for always being there."
Someone mentioning his/her high school. And i read the article, modify abit.. Cause i found out it is right, and it lists out all my thoughts.

Hi "people"

2010-05-30T02:00:00.012+08:00

I'm so sick of the immaturity, of name calling, of labels, of gossip, of college people.I know rumors are uncontrollable, trying to squash a rumor is like trying to unring a bell. But what you don't see with your eyes, don't witness with your mouth. Why must you all wanna spread those thing that doesn't exists at all? You all never know how i felt. Imagine you all are me. Think about that. If you haven't got anything nice to say about anybody, come sit next to me.

Never make negative comments or spread rumors about anyone. It depreciates their reputation and yours. Only fartER knows who farted. And hell i know, rumors emanated from people who are in a position of power. If drama were vodka, my college would be so wasted.

Oh ya, one last thing;

Yeah, you talk smack,
behing my back.
Why don't you just cut to the chase
and say it to my face.

Funeral of Hearts

2010-05-25T21:41:00.007+08:00

She was the sun, shining upon;

The tomb of your hopes and dreams so frail.

He was the moon, painting you;

With it's glow so vulnerable and pale.

She was the wind, carrying in;

All the troubles and fears you've for years tried to forget.

He was the fire, restless and wild;

And you were like a moth to that flame.

What we love to do we find time to do.

2010-04-15T04:21:00.002+08:00

The bad news is time flies.

The good news is you're the pilot.

May i have your attention please?

2010-03-03T12:56:00.007+08:00

"dun sad bcos of the relation o~u noe la this kind of ppl especially LAZE...u should hate him la...last time my fren oso togather for 2months then break...jus want her virgin after that break...wtf...know some1 b4 u start ur relation. this fucker reli good at cheating girls. U know when i was at college i ardy heard his fren said he got 4-5 x-gf d...all oso short term eh gf. He get gf jus to hv sex nia mcb him"

How clever you are, my friend. You never mean a single word you about to say. My wish isn't to mean everything to everyone but something to someone. I don't like compliments, and I don't see why a woman should think she is pleasing a man enormously when she says to his a whole heap of thimngs that he doesn't mean. Watch what you say! If i'm playboy, i would say it proudly to everyone. You dont have to take care this matter for me. Aww thank you, i'm flattered that you're jealous of me!

对不起

2010-02-07T04:19:00.001+08:00

我现在才知道我没有想念你的权力

here there this and that you or me

2010-02-04T01:01:00.006+08:00

We are young, we are far born in this world as it falls apart. We are strong, we dont belong, born in this world as it falls apart~ (Hollywood Undead - young)
I swear that i care, but it's hard when you stare into the bottom of a bottle that is empty and bare. My desolate soul, in my desolate home, it's my desolate role. Oh yeah, now i'm here all alone. I cant think of a reason to get the fuck out of bed, curtains close, lights are off, am i alive or dead? I have no idea what im doing these days. I havent shaved in a week, i always slur when i speak. Dollar is at it's peak, another fit just to sleep. God damn i'm a fuck up, but i guess that's just me. So i'll sit in my room and i'll cry in my bed, thinking about the shit that made me wrong in my head. I keep trying to climb but it seems so steep, pout myself a fucking whiskey and go back to sleep again and again. I wanna go back to the start, back where we started from. And i know it's been so long. I was wrong, i was wrong all along. Another is going by, i wrote this in my head, there were so many things were left unsaid after i left. I wonder is there any couple love each others like Jack and Sally in this lifeless life? If it does, can you tell me how to handle it? So that i know how to. Too bored to be alive, too quick to be dead, too free to blog nonsenses, too lazy to get out of my bed, too sad to think about it.. Zzz! Bored to death! People, save me!

Strangers

2010-01-27T14:27:00.001+08:00

Remember how when you were little and your parents were like do not talk to strangers?

If you look around in your life, you'll be amazed at how many strangers became an integral part of your life. Some are your best friends, some are your significant others, others are just people that you hang out with, but the point of the matter is at a certain point in life they were all strangers.
It's amazing how you meet someone, put defenses against them because you do not know who they are, nor what they might bring to the table. Before you realizing it, you and those given strangers make a bond that in time can become quite strong. Maybe it's just me but I think that the process in which strangers surpass the stage of strangers is amazing.
What I don't think is amazing is the ballgame where friends become strangers and regress to their initial stage. Maybe it has to do with human nature, but it seems like a vicious cycle where the unknown becomes known and the known becomes incognito.
All in all, strangers amaze me because half of the people in our life, were nonexistent to us years ago. Maybe its fate, maybe its destiny, but in life some of the people that we least expect, become an implicit part of our daily life.

what about December?

2009-12-18T01:49:00.001+08:00

End of the year. December mean a lot. It brings January a little bit closer; another year to start. And thanks December for bring Christmas a little bit closer. Thanks December that let me know who will stay with me till the last.
What is the end of December? What is the start after December?
Different perceptions, different things.
To those who are sad, please be strong. Tough moment pass slow, yet get stronger from thr process.
To those who make people sad, maybe you have thousand reason to do so. Once you did so, please don't look back and no more hesitation. Once is enough. Just let it be.
To those who are happy, appreciate the moment. Happy moment just like a thunder.
To those who make people happy LIKE ME ^^, we are good people(Good Job). Keep going on. Makes all laughter all the ways.
In the end, life is complicated laaaa.
Feel your way. Make no regrets. Cheers!
Thanks December for bringing 2009 to its end.

Feel ❤

2009-12-03T23:16:00.003+08:00

The best thing one can do when it's raining is to let it rain.

Everything happen for a reason

2009-11-13T00:40:00.000+08:00

I strongly believe that everything happen for a reason in this realistic world.
For making our life better.
Several times, i heard people say they wish
They could go back in time to switch something around to make it better.
But think wisely, it would only make your reality different.
Or you may not who are you now.
If we did have the ability to change the past and make a change our present
We will not grown since we know we could just erase our mistakes.
Ya, maybe we might question the direction that we're taking now.
Or wonder about the choices we had,
Remember everything happen for a reason.
Perhaps, i was born unhappy.

Wall of protection and mischief

2009-11-13T00:02:00.000+08:00

This is freaking true.

Dont blame me if i did so, if i did so.

You know what i mean, if you are the one.

The walls get thicker each time we got hurt and

Acquire extra layer we have to get up from the hurt.

And learn to stand back by picking up the pieces of the broken heart.

There is good and bad about the walls.

Sometime it protect us from getting hurt.

Because we wont missing out on so much that we used to care.
And we will not afraid to do something out of the boundaries of there sacred walls.

Treasure

2009-11-05T22:55:00.002+08:00

Never take someone for granted.

Hold every person close to your heart

because you might wake up one day

and realize that you've lost a diamond

while you were too busy collecting stones.

Peaceful Night

2009-11-03T02:13:00.000+08:00

After attending a funeral. My mood is totally down.
I was sitting on the chair i used to sit at balcony.
Looking up to the sky. A star is blinking..
In life, people comes and goes..
I started to wondering..
How long i will be in this world?
How much longer im still alive?
A peaceful night for a alive person.

Funeral

2009-11-03T01:48:00.001+08:00

A man is not old until his regrets take the place of dreams.

U-turn

2009-10-28T20:28:00.000+08:00

Kita selalu boleh u-turn kalau kita salah jalan. Tapi tak semua hukum berlaku kat semua tempat dan keadaan kan? Aku dah tak boleh buat pusingan U. Cuma boleh berdoa dan berharap agar takde jalan mati kat depan.

Call me the class skiper

2009-10-28T10:11:00.000+08:00

Fuck up! I over slept again, it is uncountable times already.
I cannot skip class anymore!
I want to study, i don't want to get barred!
But every time early in the morning, i can't get myself awake.
I am so guilt.
I should sleep early start from today, i will not skip any classes anymore.
No more~!
Sleep before at least 1 everyday.
Sleep no matter how "busy" am i. I don't want to skip class, it's tired.
Aarrrgggghhhhh~ I hate my life now.
Somebody save me, make me sleep before 1..
Aku mau pi class, tak mau ponteng lagi..

Recently

2009-10-24T21:40:00.000+08:00

Hey, people. Im back. Uhmm, how to describe my recent? I have busy days, insomnia, stressful life now. A lot of thing appear in my life, new things. Have to learn, have to do, have to sacrifice. Don't have the time to blog about my recently life. I skipped classes for 3 weeks. Try to be a better man, have a better life. But i live in a sad world. Although a lot of thing i want to do, i have no time for those. Laze is going to be tough and tough. No one can take him down.
I try to cope with every environment that approaches in my life. I try to be the one who people wish me to be. But seem like the thing i'm trying to do. Problems come right another. Sometime i think, why people stand after they fall? Why it is so hard to be a human? Why dont we just give up to our life.. I seeing friend losing their love, the feeling of losing their love. I see they cried, i see they prayed. Perhaps i dont fully understand how the feel, but i pretty sure they dont understand how i feel seeing them like that. Even myself, have no idea to that feeling. Complicated. There is a lot of thing that we dont wish it happen, yet it happen. lame la.. i dont know what i talking.. MOFO!

Lovely Rainy Morning

2009-10-19T08:31:00.001+08:00

Half an hour later im having class.

Didnt sleep for whole night.

The day is cold, and dark, and dreary;
It rains, and the wind is never weary;
The vine still clings to the moldering wall,
But at every gust the dead leaves fall,
And the day is dark and dreary.

After raining there will be shinny sky.

After bad then the good comes.

Good morning people.

Sick to life

2009-10-19T00:18:00.003+08:00

to avoiding the cruel realities of circumstances..

Stark reality beckons the plight.
Just as odd circumstances do.
Tethering one to insane thoughts.
That wisdom prevails to abstain from.
That gravity of the split second.
When decision irreversible seeks.
To a situation whence vultures may dare.
Instilling their precious wrath.
On any suitable prey that succumbs.
Then, one would rather gather courage.
To indulge in escapism unlimited.

I been thinking and thinking.

Awfully sick.

2009-10-13T06:43:00.000+08:00

thanks babe (:

Tag by Wuang Ching

2009-10-06T23:37:00.000+08:00

Rules:
Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with d wedding plan!=)At the end, choose d people u want to be tagged.You have to tag the person who tagged you.If I tagged you, it's because I want to know about u! =)
1. How old are you?- 20 after birthday.
2. Are you single?- Taken.
3. At what age do you think you'll get married?- 30?
4. Do you think you'll marry the person you are with now? If no problem, i wish to.
5. If not, who do you want to marry? A person who care about me.
6. Who will be your bridesmaid & bestman? Ming Siang or Wen Kai.
7. Do you want a garden/beach or traditional wedding? I want all.
8. where do you plan to go on honeymoon? Moon.
9. How many guests do you think you'll invite? As much as i can.
10. Will that include your exes? Sure.
11. How many layers of cake do you want? 9.
12. When do you want to get married, morning or evening?- Evening.
13. Name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding. Love Song.
14. Do you prefer fine dining or just normal spoon&fork?knife? Anything.
15. Champagne or red wine? Champagne.
16. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding? Right after the wedding.
17. Money or household items? $$.
18. How many kids would you like to have? A boy a girl.
19. Will you record your honeymoon in DVD/CD? I will keep it in mind.
20. Whose wedding plan would you like to know next. Anyone.

Friend? True Friend? Which one you are?

2009-10-06T05:44:00.002+08:00

In my opinion-in today's generation, true friends might not even exist.

You have your good friends-the ones you call all the time and go the mall with, and sleep overs, the ones who chat about guys and confide feelings with.

You have your school friends-these talk to you around school and invite you to cooking parties or some things you may have in common with that person. They are always nice but don't really really know the real you.

You have your space filler friends:-usually the ones around lunch, they giggle, they laugh, they talk and chat but they really don't know who you are and might never know. Just there to fill the space, cruel it might sound but true it is.

You have your once in a while friends:these people know your a nice person and you think the same but you don't have any close connects with them and don't seem to have time to talk very often but a hi once in a while is nice.

Then you have asset friends: people who want something from you, if its money, love, smarts, "coolness", or some special thing you could open doors to and are only nice for you to be on their side of some stupid argument.(these are the people who change friends every other day)

And last you have your cold friends: these people really don't care much about you and would tell a secret behind your back in a moment with no regrets. There not really your friends, they seem to infetltrating your life just to make it harder and will often start false rumors.

How to stop being jealous?

2009-10-06T05:26:00.000+08:00

As explained by William Shakespeare, jealousy is one green eyed monster that troubles most of the people, especially, those who are in a relationship! Every person has stood on either side of the fence of jealousy at least once in his lifetime. There are times people wonder, is jealousy a woman's domain? Well, not really! Both men and women equally suffer from jealousy. The exact origin of jealousy can be found in a motley of different feelings which are not always irrational to be honest. It is a blend of fear and insecurity of losing a priceless possession or a person.

Many psychologists refer jealousy directly to the lack of self esteem in a relationship. After a while jealousy, reinforces itself and starts to captivate the normal routine of a person and turns his life into an absolute disaster. Jealousy can be occasional and it can be regular that simply wouldn't go away. Yes, we know all these things, the question is - how to stop being jealous?

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2009-10-06T02:40:00.000+08:00

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1Y1S1SB

2009-10-03T14:12:00.000+08:00

College reopen soon. Had a great sem break. Result is going to release, wonder how is my result. LOL! Hope that wont have any subject fail. I think there is enough effort to get all my subject pass.

Hey people! Check this out, i found something it is kinda true, so i quote from cyn!

Here they are..

- Some people thinks they're proud of being their friend

- Some people thinks they're proud having the chance to taking a picture with them

- Some people loves getting fame from others.

- Some people talks like they know everything.

- Some people talks like a professor.

- Some people dont even know what they are talking.

- Some people used ultra word in simple sentences so that they will look ultra.

Check this out. Are you confuse of seeing this? Think twice if you are one of them!

Dont talk like you are a professor or you are like "you-know-everything" Cause we are not, even me. I just speak some thoughts in my mind. I started wonder why, how could you did such thing that you said which is so easy to be done but i found out you are not even capable to do that, you moron! Action speak louder than sounds!

When we see things, we look in to a bigger picture. Dont see only half or even a corner. If you do that, you better go home and switch on you tv and watch barney! This ain't a cartoon anymore. Stop being naive like you are watching Marvell or Disney. We are definitely talking about life, people to people!

And you know what? Life is great! Full of funny thing. Steady people!

p/s

This is all about what in my mind not mentioning anybody. Cause many things happen to my friends. This is not mention about them. So to avoid any misunderstanding. I'm not mention about that scene. I hope you guys could be better from that scene too. Peace!

KL Trip

2009-09-30T04:53:00.001+08:00

(:

2009-09-28T15:13:00.000+08:00

Hey people im back from kl! It's a nice trip. But i was extremely exhausted, tired, and sick!
Even i cant fully enjoyed it, but im still be able enjoyed the moment with her.
Going to have nap anyway. Will continue post after wake up/free.

Currently searching for active clubber.

2009-09-25T05:36:00.000+08:00

A new club is going to hit penang! Please support! Will be open at next year. We are currently doing a great deal for all people who interested. Join as a member for the club, and we wont mistreat you. This is not a joke, it's a great deal for you all. And Membership is limited, grab your chance before it's slip. If really interested, please call for more information(0165925389).

Head Over Heels

2009-09-21T04:44:00.000+08:00

Hey people! it's late now. I should be sleeping, i should be dreaming, but i'm still blogging. Lol!
Currently at Taiping. Having a semester break. College reopen on 5th. Going KL. =D
Everybody has a different perception of love.
Some people said, their life likes shit. Some people say their life is the best. Some people they are being love. Some people say they get hurt.. What is yours? And what about mine? Check this out..
I together with a person mean i like the person, i do whatever it takes to love her.. I dont care i will be hurt or what.. As long as i know i love her. If she will cheat me.. I will just let it be.. I know it will bring damage if she cheated, but at first place.. I do think like this from the day i was born. "I'll tell myself. If want to blame. Blame myself of loving her not blaming why she will hurt me. Because i'm the one who allow she to gets in my heart, to cheat me." So dont blame others for cheating you. People! Dare to love, dare to bear!
luckily she is not that kind. hehe.
Maybe you think that i cant understand.. but seriously tell you i can feel your paiin. I can understand how you feel.. It will never happen twice in your life. I will never do that, never do it before, never in the next coming days. I can promise you that. I promise to myself either. Will never let the same thing happen again. I dont have any prove to prove what i said, or what i will do. I dont know how much i can say about it, how much i can do. But i will do my best to make things better. But I just hope you can trust me. Just have a little faith in me.
Awaiting 25th, it going to be a nice trip. I miss you. ♥
Promise me, hand to hand we going to pull together through everything.. I l♥ve you.

190909

2009-09-19T19:27:00.000+08:00

Bye bye (:

Miss you ♥

Vampire heart

2009-09-18T00:16:00.000+08:00

I found!

Every time we hang out, you sure will mention about him..

No matter what, this is his who laa.. His gf what laa..

Maybe you don't realize it, but i can sense it.

I don't blame on anything..

Just telling you.. And i just so helpless when i thought of it..

If someday i ask, "Do you still in you with him?" You must answer me no! Please lied to me if you still are.I know there is nothing i can say to change that part.
Many liights that cast a shadow.
He left a deepest shadow in your heart..
Is it hard to understanding,
Ask yourself, and think.
Do you have any feeling towards him or still love him?
You LOVE or LOVED him?

Bullets without gun

2009-09-17T06:31:00.000+08:00

If i have no bullet for myself, what am i suppose to do?

If i have no gun but bullet, what am i suppose to do?

Will you always be with me? Will you never leave me?

Am i going to do something bad again? I wish not.

I will not ask for forgiveness, if i made a decision..

I will not blame people for what had i did, or what will i'm going to do.

I will not look back when i fell for my own choice.

I will not make the choice that will make me regret.

I just hope everything will be fine..

Even i can i say "i will not", but inside my heart.. No where of my deepest heart.. I wish.. I hope..

有一种爱叫做放弃, do you guys agree with it? Better no.

Last time, i said "I love her, but i left her.".

But no matter what, i pretty agreed with it last time. And i said it to my EXs' friends when they ask me question. Maybe it is just an excuse for myself? Or a selfish action to make myself feel better? One thing i can tell, i never cherish the one who beside me that time.

I have no reason why i felt that way.. I should not say like that. EVER and NEVER again!

And i proud to say i REGRET of thought like that last last time..

I don't want to leave the one i love easily anymore.

Sometime things happen in our life, it is hard to digest. We don't exactly know what decision should we make.

What is right and what is the wrong?

We should cherish every single thing around us or just see it slips away right in front of our eyes?

I don't want to hurt myself.

Just as how much i don't wanna get hurt, i don't wanna you get hurt too.

I love myself, i love my parents, family, friends, but i loved you just as much!

Finished!

2009-09-17T06:18:00.000+08:00

Exam finished. What am i suppose to do in this sem break?
Feel easy after exam finished. I wish i could pass all subjects that i taken.
What kind of days will be in the next coming semester? Kinda curious..
Should i earn some bucks instead of having fun around?
Grown man! I'm going to 20!
I should learn how to earn money myself but not always spending family's money.
I should earn cash by myself.

I'm Yours ♥

2009-09-17T05:57:00.000+08:00

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it

I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted

I fell right through the cracks

And now I'm trying to get back

Before the cool done run out

I'll be giving it my bestest

Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention

I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me

Open up your plans and damn you're free

Look into your heart and you'll find love love love

Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me

I like peaceful melodys

It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love

So I won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait I'm sure

There's no need to complicate

Our time is short

This is our fate, I'm yours

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror

And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer

But my breath fogged up the glass

And so I drew a new face and laughed

I guess what I'm saying is there ain't no better reason

To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons

It's what we aim to do

Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait I'm sure

There's no need to complicate

Our time is short

This is our fate, I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me

Open up your plans and damn you're free

Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love

Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me

I like one big family (2nd time: I like happy family)

It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love

I won't hesitate no more

Oh no more no more no more

It's your God-forsaken right to be loved, I'm sure

There's no need to complicate

Our time is short

This is our fate, I'm yours

No I won't hesitate no more, no more

This cannot wait I'm sure

There's no need to complicate

Our time is short

This is our fate, I'm yours, I'm yours

I wish you could tell me "I'm yours" with sincerity but not hesitation. Miss you.

090909 ♥

2009-09-14T03:55:00.000+08:00

In a special moment
With a different person
It makes the date perfect
lazeevon ♥♥

不要说不要

2009-09-14T01:53:00.000+08:00

其实很不想听到你所习惯说的“不要”
也害怕我有一天会习惯了你的“不要”
我不希望有一天会习惯了你的“不要”
也不想会有习惯你的“不要”的那一天
也很担心有一天会习惯了你的“不要”
不想事情变成那个我们都不要的样子
只是希望我们能否开开心心的过日子
那就够了 (: i'll be with you

How a fighter fights without his weapon?

2009-09-13T15:17:00.000+08:00

When i wake up, i search for my cellphone. And i found it shut down. Then i open it.

Afterward, i go and wash my face. Then when i come back again, it shut down again.
I tried and tried, it automatically shut down again and again.. Haih..
That time i realize, my cellphone spoil. In the meanwhile, i think parents could help out, i called, ask dad to give me some money to buy a cheap one. You know what happen? I get scold.. Then i just say "never mind already". It's used to be that way. Speechless..
And and you know what, my cellphone over limit. LOL! Cant make calls. And i didnt memorize her cellphone(my bad), keep open the spoil cellphone to get her number, almost everytime i get it, but not in good timing, it shut down.. Frustrated!
What i'm going to do without my cellphone?
I cant survive without my cellphone. Now my cellphone spoil. Arrggghhhhh~
Bad day.. Someone save me? please please..

It's raining

2009-09-13T05:58:00.000+08:00

September and October so many friends birthday..

Spent 4++ in 3 days.. Broke laa.Who wanna sponsor me?
Oh ya, i always cant remember my dad and mom's birthday laa.

Tomorrow have to ask her already.
Raining makes me think of many things.. Hmm..

It's 0555... Gonna sleep or not get scold..

Your love is the sweetest sin, i never felt so good to be so wrong

2009-09-13T05:43:00.000+08:00

It was already midnight when I was back to my room from Kelvin Birthday. When I was lying down on bed trying to doze off, then i start to think about my ghost of the past and skeletons. From it i i realize,
I never thought that you could break me apart, i keep a sinister smile and a hold of my heart. I dont know how to say this right laa, and the words got me chockin. And just now, i won't try to philosophize that what had happen, i'll just take a deep breath and look in your eyes and waiting you to answer every question that i asked. What had happen between us, it too fast and i know it is so surreal and you feel it the same but i can tell, i never lied anything.
And of course everything happen for a reason. Haha! You are stupid sometime, your stupidities make me smile. So stop asking why i always smiled, and i smile for reasons, not nothing la k.
I always give up thing easily..
You make me realize sometime we just need to hit it hard and hard but not give up
Year likes day when you are around. xoxo ♥
In this blog, all the words are chokin me. So i might not understand what i written. lol! kinda blur when i look back. But still wanna post it laa. =P

不看你就笨蛋

2009-09-09T16:09:00.003+08:00

年輕人喜歡上了在便利商店打工的女孩,他每天都會到女孩工作的店裡面買一包香菸,漸漸的兩人開始互相熟悉,當女孩工作感到無聊乏味的時候,或者是心情不好的時候,年輕人就會出現, 他會陪女孩說說話, 或是逗女孩開心.女孩也知道年輕人似乎喜歡上自己了,可是自己已經有很要好的男友,面對年輕人如此的關懷,自己也不知道如何婉拒他.有一天商店外頭運來一台娃娃機,女孩很喜歡裡面的娃娃,年輕人知道以後,就去夾了一隻娃娃送給女孩,當天他終於對她表白,希望女孩能接受他,不知如何是好的女孩,只能殘忍的告訴年輕人,她和他是不可能的,因為她已經有深愛的男友了,年輕人聽了之後默然的點點頭,只是自己對女孩的喜歡已經超出自己所預期的,他不死心的問女孩,自己真的沒有機會了嗎?善良的女孩不忍心看到原本開朗風趣的年輕人變得如此消沉寡歡,於是她手指著娃娃機裡面的絨毛娃娃說,除非你夾滿100個娃娃,而且一天只能夾一個.原來女孩希望用時間來沖淡年輕人對自己的感情,她心想,一天夾1個娃娃,最快也要三個多月之後才100個,而且年輕人應該不會真的有耐心夾滿100個娃娃吧!這三個月的時間,她會盡量與男孩保持距離, 她決心讓兩人恢復到店員和顧客的關係.年輕人還是每天到商店來,可是女孩開始變得冷淡,他總是試著聊一些女孩有興趣的話題,不過女孩依然愛理不理.因為她知道唯有這樣做,才不會讓年輕人越陷越深.年輕人或許是感覺到女孩的用意,於是他每天夾娃娃,有時運氣好夾一兩次就中了,有時運氣差,零用錢花光了也夾不到,

只好跟朋友借錢繼續夾,一直到夾中為止.無論花多少錢花多少時間,他每天一定會夾一個娃娃.只是他無法與女孩分享夾到娃娃的喜悅,因為他知道女孩有意要避開他,為了怕引響到女孩的情緒,他只能在櫥窗外頭微笑的對女孩點點頭.好幾次,看到年輕人因為夾到娃娃興高采烈的樣子,女孩都想要衝出去對他說,我是騙你的,你不要再夾了,就算你真的夾到100個娃娃我跟你也是不可能的!但是一想到年輕人希望破滅的樣子,女孩就於心不忍,她只能不斷猶豫.就這樣1天,2天,3天..,年輕人的娃娃數量不斷的累積,而女孩刻意與年輕人保持距離的結果,則是讓自己在工作的時後更顯孤單.不知道是哪一天,女孩子因為在外地工作的男友無法回來陪她過18歲的生日,與男友吵了一架,而那天年輕人仍一如往常的來到便利商店,不同的是那天年輕人竟走進了店裡,他對女孩說,可不可以破例讓他在今天夾兩個娃娃回去,可是因為和男友吵架而心情不佳的女孩,很生氣的當場拒絕了他.就這樣,年輕人走到娃娃機旁,默默的夾了一個娃娃回去,在年輕人離開的時後,他對櫥窗裡的女孩看了一眼.隔天以後,年輕人再也沒來夾娃娃了.剛開始女孩雖然覺得奇怪,但是仍然慶幸自己終於放下了心中的大石頭.可是漸漸的,她突然覺得不習慣,因為那個每天都會為了她來夾娃娃的熟悉背影,好像空氣一樣就消失不見了,這時女孩才發現到,原來她心中的失落感遠遠超過年輕人所帶給她的負擔.只是一切都...

女孩開始想念以前年輕人來店裡陪她聊天的點點滴滴.哪怕他只是站在櫥窗外頭沉默不語的夾娃娃,似乎都會帶給她莫名的安全感.所以女孩每天上班時,總是不斷的抬頭張望,那個熟悉的身影來了嗎?可惜的是,年輕人始終沒出現,只剩下那台沒人使用的娃娃機.有一天,女孩下班後,在店門口遇到了以前常和年輕人一起來的朋友,她焦急的問他年輕人的下落,可是年輕人的朋友則是一臉黯然,他帶女孩來到年輕人的家,當他開啟年輕人的房間的門時,映入女孩眼簾的是一群娃娃機裡面的絨毛娃娃,以及躺在床上動也不動的年輕人.原來年輕人的脊椎有病,必須要開刀才能保住生命,可是開刀有一半的機率會失敗而導致全身癱瘓,年輕人在開刀的前一天晚上,也就是女孩和男友大吵一架的那天,希望女孩給他機會夾2個娃娃,因為他已經累積有98個了,然而卻遭到女孩的回絕,隔天之後年輕人手術不幸失敗變成植物人,年輕人的母親拿了一封信給女孩,那是年輕人在手術之前寫好的:其實我早就知道,就算夾到了100個娃娃,妳也不可能會喜歡我,我之所以這麼做並不是故意要造成妳的困擾,而是希望在我有限的時間裡,證明我曾經很用心的去愛一個人,這樣就足夠了,如果妳看到了這封信,那表示我再也無法為你夾娃娃了,對不起,或許我的努力還不夠吧,沒能夾到100個娃娃親手送給你..

女孩看著床邊的99個絨毛娃娃,那是99顆無法承受的真心,眼眶裡的淚水早已決堤而出...隔天女孩來到年輕人的家,她將第100個絨毛娃娃放到年輕人的手中,這時已經變成植物人的他, 眼睛流下了淚水.

緣份是一種很炫的東西通常是在不知不覺中出現。當它存在之時，你可能不會珍惜；期待它到來時，它卻一直都不出現.所以，從此刻開始，大家要懂得珍惜它，珍惜生活在你周圍的所有人，無論是朋友、愛人、甚至家人.......CHERISH IT在你一生當中，能交到多少個知心朋友 ?? 雖然你們實際上才認識不久，不過感覺上卻像好久好久。就是你們很談得來，什麼都分享，什麼都聊，一輩子也不厭倦的那種。如果你有這種朋友，趕快對他說:這一生中最知心的朋友就是你，絕對錯不了!!~而且永遠也不會改變 !~

INTIMATE FRIENDS

我們有緣而相識

我們有緣而相聚

我們有緣而交換心靈

我們應該彼此珍惜相處的每一刻

更應該珍惜你現在所擁有的一切

此生才不會悔憾

LOVE

是愛??是喜歡??還是只是欣賞??

愛是百分之百，你無時無刻都在想、思念著他。

喜歡有百分之八十，你常常都會想到他、思念他。

而欣賞只剩百分之六十 ,你只有偶爾會想到、和思念著他。

欣賞會讓人積極，喜歡會讓人開心，

但愛卻會讓人傷心。

當你欣賞一個人，你不見得會喜歡他，也不見得會愛上他。

當你喜歡的一個人，有可能你只是欣賞他，但你也有可能會愛上他。

當你愛一個人時，你一定是基於欣賞，慢慢變成喜歡，然後最後成了愛.

當你和他搭訕時，剛開始那只是出於“欣賞” 。

當他們交往一段時間後，可能會變成“喜歡”，

但也可能永遠只能停留在“欣賞”，至於“愛”，

很難說，說不定你一輩子都找不到。

LIKE

有人問：你為什麼喜歡一個人？

我只能夠說出為什麼不喜歡一個人，卻說不出為什麼喜歡一個人。

喜歡一個人，是一種感覺。不喜歡一個人，卻是事實。

事實容易解釋，感覺卻難以言喻。

愛情是忽然有一個人，我們覺得一見如故，

我們的內分泌忽然起了翻天覆地的變化，很很想靠近她，想擁抱她。

以後，無論快樂或哀愁，我們也想不起當初為什麼愛她。

因只有當我們不愛一個人時，才會找出不愛她的原因。

ADMIRE

每個人都有屬於自己的一個故事。

在這故事理，你應該努力地演好自己的角色。

如果劇本是自己寫的，我相信，這個世界裡再不會有悲劇出現。

只可惜，編劇一定是兩個人。

只要其中一方有了變話，這齣戲任你再怎麼努力去演，

到了最後只會成為悲劇。

一生當中，會有很多跟你合演的人，

但最終，只有一個可以幫你完成這齣劇

FRIENDSHIP

珍惜現在所擁有的，總比到時候完全失去了再也沒得的好吧

090909

2009-09-09T00:01:00.000+08:00

People is going to confessing on that date. Once in a life time.

In mandarin 9 means last longer or maybe forever?

I was wondering should i or not should not?

But i think that is no longer a question,
all is about time that we should given.

Just feel like what a waste?

Anyway,
Happy 090909 to those who are celebrating with their love one.
Someone is doubting.

wait for you (:

She wolf

2009-09-08T18:16:00.000+08:00

I believe this world has Miracle,
but i never thought that,

It happen to me.

Just now.

In the nut shell,

So happy laaa.

Love you nia. (:

You make me so sick

2009-09-08T13:04:00.000+08:00

What can i do?
Thing just happen.

Nobody's fault, yet i feel worst.

No mood to study.

Tomorrow, i'm dead!

Don't talk to me, i will be okay.

Don't say anything but accept it.

Life's goes on.
nothing but just disappointed

Dead Wrong

2009-09-07T06:39:00.000+08:00

No more nightmares!

No more crying, wipe them tears.

I know it confusing you.

We going pull together through it, we going to do it!

And it will be done!

I wont move till you finally see.

eu&mie ♥

It's never over

2009-09-06T04:28:00.000+08:00

Speak! Everybody speaks! A lot people don't know that they speak with emotional all the meanwhile. If you don't know you speak with emotional all the time, so please don't judge people in what they spoke if you don't know what their emotional was.
You look so naive and childish of talking others like you are very expert in, indeed you don't know nothing at all. I don't blame if you are not mature, but at least childish might use their childish brain to think thing, and so do naive.. But why you are so mean in the meantime of gossip others to others. I wanna say congratulations, because you won the "Lamest" prize, lame you!
Or maybe some people don't know how to express their feeling, but don't gossip to others about what you heard beside of fully understand it. Or perhaps, they spoke it, but they don't mean what they said? Especially girls, in Chinese we call "口是心非". Ain't you know it?
If you want to gossip, gossip in your dream. Just like you cannot do what i did, just do it in your dream. You can't get everything you wanted or the thing you can't do in the real life but it's happen in your wonderful dream, no one will blame or talk about you if you do so.
And lastly, please don't waste time of envying or talking about me. If you're talking about me, thank you, because you making my name so famous. Or if you are envying me, thanks too, it's prove i am better than you. But seriously, you don't have to do that, i'll take good care of myself. Save your time and do the thing you failed to do so.

-still trying hard to stop smoking-

Timetable

2009-09-03T11:54:00.000+08:00

03/09 S2 ENGLISH LANGUAGE AELE1133 CA

05/09 S1 HUBUNGAN ETNIK AEMS2032 B203-B207

08/09 S1 BAHASA MALAYSIA AEMS1022 CA

09/09 S2 FUNDAMENTAL MATHEMATICS AAMS1634 CA

11/09 S1 PROGRAMMING CONCEPTS AND DESIGN I AACS1074 CA

14/09 S1 INFORMATION TECHNOLOGY AACS1003 B206-B209

The window of truth

2009-09-03T09:00:00.000+08:00

Look like, i had done another bad thing now.

Woke up early in the morning, cause sleep very very earlier yesterday.

Unbelievable, i sleep at 1030 woke up at 0630.

I should not ask you something like that, i should not tell you the thing i had told.

I so so regret of telling, i made everything worst. God damn!

Having exam later. English subject, study nothing about it.

Feel like eating breakfast, but everybody is sleeping.

Have breakfast in solitude.

2nd day of not smoking, i can do it!

=)

2009-09-02T22:09:00.001+08:00

"Learn from yesterday.

Live for today.

Hope for tomorrow."

Stop smoking ♥

Your wish

2009-09-01T22:22:00.000+08:00

Hey dudes,

No more Cigarette!

Hope i can drop the bad habit.

Please support me!

Syok Sendiri

2009-09-01T07:28:00.000+08:00

Oh Allah! Mungkin aku overslept semalam. sekarang dah 0745, tak boleh tidur ni. Allah damn it! Aku mesti baca lepas aku bangun nanti. Khamis ini dah exam leh, mesti mesti pukul buku-buku dah. Instead of tak mau fail, aku juga nak A's la.. Tamak kah? Tak tamak la.. Semua pun mau A.. haha. Rakan-rakan sekalian wish aku luck ok? Mesti okay la.. Kamu semua orang baik punya ma.. x)

Hmm.. Apa aku sedang buat ni? Exam sudah nah mari tapi duduk sini tulis blog pulak.. Tapi tak boleh blame la ni. Aku tak tau mau buat apa, saja nak tulis yang bukan-bukan tak ada mood baca. Dah morning dah, aku think aku mesti tidur lah, kalau tidak nanti tak boleh bangun lagi. End up tak boleh baca, lepas tu exam tak lulus. Tak boleh macam ni.. Aku mesti lulus punya ma. Dan aku pandai punya, mesti lulus lah.. Tapi ini tak boleh cakap punya, nanti tak baca tak lulus pulak.. U semua tau lah, kadang kala, kami pandai punya, tapi tak da luck pun tak guna kan? haha

Tak mau cakap lagi lah.. Pi tidur dah.. Bye bye.

A question

2009-09-01T00:21:00.000+08:00

"How long you take to like someone?"

A second?

A week?

Or you never know?

Now. Tell.

Update Update!

2009-08-31T23:48:00.000+08:00

Hey, my lovely lord, what had i done wrong for my life? Why there are so many questions but no answer.? So bad.. Ok la.. Come to serious. Haha! I just step a new page of my life. It is not easy at all. Happy but not so comfortable with it. I tried to draw something on it, but it does not ease anything. I'm also try hard to rephrase my past life, not wanting make it to perfect, but hopefully i will be better. According to the past thingies, everybody learnt from it, so do i. Glad that i learn many things from time to time.

Sometimes, we may not be able to digest the things happen in our life, thing comes and goes at once. May the rhythm is so fast, people are hard to catches it up or we might be able slow the beat down.. Take it easy, think it freely, do it unconditionally, and finally feel it hardly. Just feel it and do it. Not to think anything, just wanna feel the feeling, that is call Freedom huh? Sometime i wish i can do thing without thinking anything. Maybe that's not rational and it is recklessly. But i wanna ask ain't we need to enjoy and feel the world of how the world wants us to enjoy and feels?

And i also wonder what is the so called "right timing"? It is you like someone and the person likes you, then it is a right timing? And also what is the so called "wrong timing"? It is you when a person likes you but you are not attracted after that you like the person that so called wrong timing? Lmao! Things are so contradictions sometimes, just be who i wanna be and also be who you wanna be. p/s im not blaming or hinting something.

And last, i know when things come to serious, then we need to....

We need to think

We need to consider
We need to share

We need to communicate

We need to tell

We need to give and take

We need to forgive and forget

We need to take action

Not always do it without any thoughts nor thinking. The world might looks messy, but one thing i learn from my friend. If things look messy, why dont we go and clear up the messy by not looking or blaming on it so that it no more messy, right? Please raise up your hand if you have the same thought with me. We need each others to live on in our single life.

Oh ya! And last week i did enjoy it, and i love it very much. I feel nice hanging out. Enjoy it! Hope YOU all enjoy too. Seeing you happy, i'm even more happy. (:

Rain heavilieeeeee

2009-08-29T03:19:00.000+08:00

These days, i wonder what happen to the god. Rains all day long. I feeling good with rain, it makes me think a lot. But for that night, when it happen i cried all day long. I hate when it happen. Why people have to leave us? Why?! It made my mood gone bad when i think of it. Why people will die someday? Why people will get cancer? I don't know why.. She is a generous person, she loves me, i love her too. But she left me in the end. God, you bring her away from me. My dearest.. These day, i keep missing her. It makes my mood gone bad.. Very bad! I try to hidden it, not to expose my mood to people. But now, i am writing to tell my readers. I miss her! She been the best for me. Rainy day makes me miss her.. Miss her makes me feel mood less. But never mind, i can accept now. I know it is over. =). Oh ya, Cindy dontno mood less ok? You got best friend. Example me. =)
I feel nice these day too because of rainie day. x)

Mr. Stage Designer

2009-08-26T18:09:00.001+08:00

Thanks for the blog. I understand completely what are you trying to say. But once a person cant do the thing as he expects, the feeling just like falling down from a very very high edge. I try to get better and better, so don't worry. I learnt, i fell, i did a lot mistakes, but no worries i will make the best out of the past, not to say perfect, at least i think it will be better than the previous if there is another chance.

Ya, quite agree with one of the sentences "You might not be the best I wanna work with, we have our own styles. Many a times, I don't agree with how you work, but hell mine is another hard to cope with style." Maybe what i learnt from this event is, actually i learnt a lot. But the one i think i should improve is how to communicate NICELY with people. Maybe a good communicate skill? Or buy a ticket, fly to japan to have plastic surgery(you now what im talking)?I hope there is another chance to hold an event again with you guys. There is a lot problems to solve, but honestly, it's fun! I enjoyed it. Maybe out of perfection we only can do the best, but in deep, no doubt, everybody hope they can do it perfect. For me, it's another lesson in my life. It's like, don't expect that much, just do well our own role, our own part. Out of so many advices, i realize i should get better but not blaming myself. Out of difficulties, makes miracle? lol.

Anyway, i wanna say thank you to buddies who advised me, care about or maybe blog about me.. Really thank you.. I appreciate it. Thanks Big Fat for telling me so much although you talk quite a lot XD, thanks Mr.Cow for telling what should i do from the mature way, thanks Medium Fat for blog and tell me about how to stand after i fall.. thanks Mrs.Cow for always accompany me when i need, thanks Super WC for always text and call to console me. And thanks a lot to those who cares about me and sorry that i didn't mention your name.
Hory, the blog is so touch. Almost.. =D

Tagged by people

2009-08-26T17:34:00.000+08:00

♥個人題- 10 題♥
01 你叫什么：陈健雄
03 你的綽號：Lace, 陈小肥
04 你的星座：Sagittarius
05 你是男還是女：I love girlss
06 你幾歲：19
07 你住哪裡：Penang
08 你現在的學校 : TARCollege
09 你有沒有手機 : 有
10 承上，那是多少：dont know what question talking about

♥朋友題 - 10 題♥
11 你最要好的朋友（限１個）: All my friend is the best
12 你最討厭的人（限１個）: Alot.. But i dont care

♥情題 - 10 題♥
21 你有沒有喜歡的人: she knows
23 如果没有，你希望什麼時候有另一半：as long as i found mrs.right
24 到目前為止，你跟多少人告白過：算有吧
25 到目前為止，你被多少人告白過：很多
26 到目前為止，你交過多少個男／女朋友：7个
27 你現在有另一半嗎: 没有
28 你最好的同性朋友跟你告白你會怎樣：强奸他
29 你初戀情人突然跟你告白你會接受嗎 : 错过了，就别再错
30 你為什麼會喜歡你現在喜歡的人:因为我觉得她是mrs.right
31 你和另一半牽手過嗎: 有
32 你的另一半抱或親過嗎: 有
33 你跟異性牽手過嗎: 有,接吻也有
34 是誰，你們什麼關係: 好朋友
35 現在有人在追你嗎：不知道

♥混合題 - 10 題♥
36 如果有天，好朋友離你而去，你會怎樣：我会好好的过
37 如果有天，好朋友背叛你，杀掉他！
38 如果有天，好朋友對你喜新厭舊了，你會：不明白问题
39 如果你很受不了你的父母，你會離家出走嗎: 不会
40 你上課認真嗎 : 叫我专心先生=D
41 你功課好不好：别人没得比=D
42 你开电腦都在幹嘛: msn, blog, facebook, friendster
43 你的即时通有多少个同性: 没算
44 你的即時通裡有多少個異性: 没算

♥兇手題 - 10 題♥
45 傳給你這份問卷的人是誰：LimCindy
46 这個人對你好不好：不错
47 這個人是你的誰：朋友
48 你有喜歡過這個人嗎：不可能
49 你們認識多久了：没算
50 這個人是怎樣的人：美到没得讲
51 這個人正／帥嗎：性感
52 這個人跟你有沒有在一起过：没有
53 萬一你喜歡這個人，你會怎麼办：告诉她

♥聯想題 - 10 題♥
56 說到正妹你會想到誰：婉君
57 說到帥哥你會想到誰: 明祥，文凯
58 說到憨你會想到誰: 没想到
59 說到痴你會想到誰: 文康
60 說到暗戀你會想到誰: 约十七岁小妹妹的人
61 說到出去玩你會想到誰: 数不完
62 說到聰明鬼你會想到誰: 不认识
63 說到傻子你會想到誰: Alan
64 說到笑點低你會想到誰: 不明白问题
65 說到愛笑你會想到誰: Jia XIn

♥學校題 - 11 題♥
66 你的班導是誰：没有班导
67 你的座位是第幾排第幾個：randomly
68 你最喜歡的老師是誰: 我干爹
70 你的英文好嗎: average
71 你的體育好嗎:样样都行 XD
72 你的数学好么: 算不错？
73 你喜不喜歡你的校長：不错
74 你的學校好看嗎: 最美的学校
75 你的班級是：DIT
76 你的班級在幾樓: 每天不一样楼

1.被點到必填，不填的话落到没头发！
2.請老實的回答每一個問題，不老实的话全家死光光！
3.不行擅自塗改題目。
4.寫完請點8位朋友，不可不點。
5.點完後請通知那8位朋友他被點到了。

1. Amos (看你怎样死)
2. Lee (就看你住那里，烧你的家)
3. Wuang Ching (就看你喜欢谁)
4. Enson (看你是不是同性恋)
5. Hory (就看你喜欢谁)
6. Eevon
7. Grace
8. Cynthia(哈哈，不懂华语)

Organizing Event

2009-08-24T04:37:00.000+08:00

Finally, it's over. I see it. Everybody are so free so happy. Capture picture all arounds. I feel so happy to see all that.. At least we finish the odyssey nite no matter what happen, and also helps of COMMITTEE. Without them, i dont think im capable to finish the odyssey nite. Alan and Enson, thanks for all the helps. Without you two i don't know what to do in between. Thanks for all the main and sub committees to help out the odyssey night. Appreciate everything you guys helps out for odyssey night. We did a great job no matter how bad it is and how good it is. We did it.
It's over now, no more burden to carry, no more stress. I'm a freeman now. Yea, everything pass. But i learnt from it. I did a lot of mistake, and thanks for all understanding committee for cover up my weakness. I did a lot mistakes in the process, i wanna say sorry to all of you.
Hope we all can organize event once again. =)

Millenia

2009-08-22T02:45:00.000+08:00

All right listen, i need you to go dig deep in your mind, this is important and think why im here blogging about you and you make me felt that you are just so brainless. God please help them. Im just.. im just wanna say FUCK YOU! to those that always talk about me behind of me.. Use your stupid brain and think before you output any nonsense from your mouth. THINK! You guys walk arounds and say all kind of really mean things. What the fuck you eat for breakfast or not even brush you teeth? Your mouth smell like shit, even worst. Your breath is stinks.. 7-11 out there go and buy some gums to chew. Alright now me, im going to conduct an experiment. Just to see what a frog looks like when it takes two hits of ecstasy, cause that's excatly what your eyes look like, want to check to see? Here's a mirror, notice the resemblence here? Wait! Let me put these sun glasses on. Now, look in this mirror, how about now? What do you have in common? You're both green with envy and just look like an IDIOTS with sun glassas on. This is between me and you, i know you're not happy. I know you much rather see me lying in the corner of a room somewhere crying and curled up in a ball tweeked out of my mind dying. But i tell you, you wont get to see that situation. Piss weeniess!

Fuck with your dog before you fuck with me.

No more Laze

2009-08-19T01:09:00.001+08:00

I lost the confidence to doing all the things. I thought i was, but in the end i realize that im not that what i thought. Im so tiny, tiny till i cannot find myself in myself. I dont know how to express the feeling that i feeling now, yet i still try hard to expose it here. What i want? What i need? Im just confused.. No direction.. What kind of character that i carried all the time? I thought it was that kind of what im thinking, but i realized that is not.. then what am i?.............................

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2009-08-19T00:22:00.000+08:00

First of all, i think this blog will be very very emo. Please dont read if you are not in mood.

And buddies, let me apology. I really dont have mood and not feeling well sometime, please forgive me if i offend. A lotta things happen in this while. Happen till i dont know how to blog about.. I feel dead. Many thing came through which that i dont know how to face it all, having a tough time. im so helpless.

I stood on the edges, now im fell. Damaged! A huge damage has come to me! I absent for 10 days of classes continuously, i feel bad about that. I really not in the mood to class, or anything. After everything so happen in my life, i have no idea what happen to me. I think i was undestructible all the times, but now i think easily to destroy, breakable. I made a lot of mistake, i failed many people, i failed myself.. All the ways to now, i dont really care about how people look at me, i just care about how i look myself. Now, i look very very down to myself. How come i so useless? so so helpless when things came up.. so so stupid.. Im just a bastard that no one should care about.. Last last time, i used to say i dont like myself, i can tell that it just say for fun. But now, i rreally dislike myself. It just happen in that way.. I need a saviour. A no one saviour. I dont know who am i what am i.. Feel so strange to myself. Anybody just any, show me the path that belongs to me. =( Going crazy, mind is exploding. I cant sleep well at all, i tried to get through this, yet i dont know how i will do this. I know that i only got myself to blame, but how i think and think i realize nothing could help me anything.

It's kinda funny how the life could change, a completely 360degree change of days, of myself. Until now, i dont know what i feel, how i feel. Feel numb to everything..

Seriously, this time.. now.. my mind is blank. I dont know what to do to help myself.

Bitch! See you in hell!

2009-08-06T09:25:00.000+08:00

Great, i moved. Dont have to see that bitch anymore. She damn fuck i tell you! Oh! I mean my landlord. She is the one speaks principles to us every single day, and that's nonsense. She is the one who didnt have any principle in her life, what's on her mind is im better than you because im rich than you. How dare she talks principle to us? Kiss my ass before you wanna talks, cause yyour mouth smell like sshit. I dont mind you kiss my ass.

Let me introduce who is my previous landlord. She is the one who rent her beside house to student in condition, no cooking, no washing machine, no heater, no everything and have to keep clean always. Just a bed, a table&chair and lappie. These are the thing i pass my life with(last time)

Let's see how she fuck things up.

1. Move tenant's thing out to master room without their permission due to her sibling wanna come penang for vacation.

2. After a cycle of tar, master room left a girl staying inside. She plan to kick the tenant out and let the room blank for her daughter or son to stay.

3. Whatever she talks is right, we are wrong.

4. When she feel unhappy of talking with us, she ask her husband come and talk with us. So that her husband came, her husband used to say a sentence "if you unhappy, you can move. dont talk so much".

5. So much that i cant list out.... ( to be continue )

This is how they do as a landlord. They are definitely fuck up! Rich people is shit! Maybe not majority, but i can tell they are fucking shit! I move, dont have to see her disgusting face again.

It's back

2009-08-05T18:51:00.001+08:00

Finally! It's back. Due to some reason, i promised myself wont touch it long time ago, but just for fun. But today, just now. i finally take it as serious like last time. I can see my last time's shadow. I break the promise. Sorry to both of you. I'm so sorry. I wont get myself into any. Maybe just for fun? I hope too. I cant get in to that, i lost her and my education because of this. I dont wanna lose anything because of this. Please stop me before i get into it.

29 FIRSTs

2009-07-24T18:10:00.000+08:00

These are my firsts. If I tag you, it means I want to know yours. Copy and paste this note into your notes, delete my answers, and fill yours in. =)

1. Who was your FIRST prom date?
misunderstood.lol
2. Do you still talk to your FIRST love?
Yes, i do.
3. What was your FIRST alcoholic drink?
Chivas

4. What was your FIRST job?
Product Company
5. What was your FIRST car?
Proton Saga(Old version)
6. Who was the FIRST person to text you today?
YeeSaa
7. Who is the FIRST person you thought of this morning?
Kim Ping. (Assignment)

8. Who was your FIRST grade teacher?
Mr. Goh. (My god father)
9. Where did you go on your FIRST ride on an airplane?
None.
10. Who was your FIRST best friend?
You Bai Song.
11. Where was your FIRST sleep over?
My Home.
12. Who was the FIRST person you talked to today?
Cherry
13. Whose wedding were you in the FIRST time?
June? (Going to)
14. What was the FIRST thing you did this morning?
Kissed Cherry
15. What was the FIRST concert you ever went to?
Of course My Chemical Romance.
16. FIRST tattoo?
Soon?
17. FIRST piercing?
17 years old (Lip Piercing)
18. FIRST foreign country you've gone to?
None.
19. FIRST movie you remember seeing?
God knows.
20. When was your FIRST detention?
Never.
22. Who was your FIRST roommate?
Izaac Chew Ming Siang.
23. If you had one wish, what would it be?
I wish never have Odyssey Nite in tarc. (My nightmare)
24. What is something you would learn if you had the chance?
Dance.
25. Did you marry the FIRST person to ask for you/ you asked to marry?
None.
26. What was the first sport you were involved in?
Badminton (Pro XD)
27. What were the first lessons you ever took?
A for Apple, B for Boy, C for cat....
28. What is the first thing you do when you get home?
Take off my clothe (Naked if can)
29. Who do you think will be the next person to post this?
Those i tagged?

Tag Tag Tag

Sushan

Kelvin Guan

Macy

Cherry

Doraemon

Wuang Ching

Lim Cindy

Yeang Chuan

Hory

Kong Leong

Lord please help them.

2009-07-23T12:04:00.000+08:00

Hey you all! Show some respect before you want people respect you ok? Dont always blame others, judge yourself it is good enough then only blame ok? You better mind your own behaviour, i bet you dont wanna see my "serious" face. Everybody got his own limits, you should know that. In this life there are many meanies, childish, no-brain and so on.. I dont blame you all being childish, no-brain or what.. but at least think before you do something ok? Many things happen out of my control, you guys dont even understand i dont want that kind of thing happen. But what can i do? I dont wanna that happen too. Piss! I totally dont have time to entertain you. Please mind you own attitude before thing go worst. FUCK OFF NUTs!

Maybe i was born unhappy

2009-07-14T22:18:00.000+08:00

Maybe i was born unhappy, my mind is always filled with pregnant? What i thinking all the while?

Maybe im just born unhappy. Who said that I seem to face in this life, there has never been many happy things in life. This black-faced, if I do not for what is in my mind. You guys should have know the whole natural features. I was born unhappy naturally. Dont blame me! I had enough of complaintss!

Or maybe i should take it easy, efforts should be made to pretend that everything is excitement, and try to be perfunctory air to calm smile. Who does not want people playing the pessimistic. From the perfect insight into a variety of regret on the strange features of people born with such grief is too sensitive to be courteous. In fact i would go to victims who had never said that the two smile on laughing. Does that mean that i am good?

Maybe I'm a bit too weary. Never realized that always end up with disappointed thing.

Three Stupid Things Guys Say to Women - Stop Making These Mistakes!

2009-07-11T15:45:00.000+08:00

This may be hard to believe but there are more guys who fail with women because of lousy conversation skills than we think. It's not the things they say, it's how they say the canned lines or practiced openers.You have to pack a punch into each line, make each statement shine and turn each pick up line into a finely honed seduction tool that will win her over.

Here are three of the biggest mistakes guys make when talking to women...

1. "Blah-blah and more blah". Women talk a lot when they're around men they like, but this does not mean you have to do the same thing.

Blabbing means being desperate for attention, and being extremely scared of silence. Speak slowly and deliberately to get her attention, then encourage her to talk more about herself by asking pointed questions.

2. "The Ugly Truth." You can turn a critique into a compliment. When she directly asks a question about her dress (is it too tight, does she look fat, etc.), you should know better than to give her a pointed answer.

Sometimes, brutally frank observations don't sound good. You can buffer the critique by following it up with a compliment (e.g. your butt looks flabby in that dress, just the way I like it).

3. "Wanna Make Out With Me?" This is a powerful line that most guys use, but only a few of these guys actually get to make out with the women they ask.

Why? It's in the way you say this line. Some men mess it up by looking and sounding creepy. You must sound inviting and irresistible while dishing this out or it won't work.

13 Signs you're falling in love

2009-07-10T15:16:00.001+08:00

1. You can't stay mad at him/her for more than a minute or two. But you actually have to try hard to stay mad.

2. You'll be very sensitive of what she/he doing and what those around she/he do or join with she/he.

3. You'll walk really really slow while you're with him/her..

4. You'll feel shy whenever you're with her/him..

5. While doing anything you will always wonder what she/he is doing..

6. By listening to her/his voice. You'll smile for no reason!

7. While looking at him/her...you can see no other people around you.. You can only see she/he!

9. You'll start listen the songs that he/she likes to listen..

10. She/he becomes all you think about...

11. You'll get high just by looking at him/her and smell..

12. You'll realize that you're always smiling to yourself when you're think of him/her..

13. You'll wish and do anything for him/her...

While reading this, there was

one person on your mind the whole time..

Cherish every moment and every single thing with the one you love. ♥

Today

2009-07-09T21:56:00.000+08:00

Im sorry for being emo again. But my mood did swing. What is the feeling that you being hug by someone and being told "no worries, everything will be fine. I'll be here for you."? A lot things come through and hope i can go through. Seeing people playing basketball in court, wonder when can i play basketball? I miss myself! Every path i choose, i only continue to involve and being no mood. Hope tomorrow will be better than yestarday. I can do it all by myself i believe!

I love you Siang!!!

2009-07-07T04:34:00.000+08:00

Feel so tired slept about 6am yesterday to prepared the proposal and the rules and regulations of odyssey nite, then woke up at 11. After that went for a hair cut, then straight away drove back Penang to meet her. Can't wait to see her! haha! It's 4.40am now, tired. Luckily i had ming siang! haha! Siang, thank you for taught me Binary Code until 5 o clock. Without you i dont know what to do, feel so helpless. I absent the lecturer for the chapter. Thought of pull an all nighter to discover it, but seem like wasting time at all. Luckily you know about binary code, you taught me. Or not i dont think i got to sleep tonight althought now already is 5am, but at least i can sleep. Tomorrow is my test, math is not the problem for me all the while, but not everytime! New chapter if dont study it still dont know how to solve those 0101101010. I think i should spend tiime to study! You are the best la, so love you nia! Sound's gay. haha! I think i can handle the test well, same thing goes to her, I hope she can memorize all the information that her needs to present tomorrow also. Dont nervous ya, take is easy, do the best! =) Anyway all the best! Night!

Should i call my girlfriend everyday or frequently?

2009-07-04T23:14:00.000+08:00

Should i? Will she found that is annoying? And, i think my mother going to give me a call soon! Cause the past 2 months, i almost call her everyday. My mom is going to ask me, why your phone bill that much?! haha.. But i think my mom knows why already la.. Cause is not the first time. XD

Ok, let go into the topic! Should i call my girlfriend frequently? But, actually i almost call her everyday. I also dont know why. I used to maybe? I think i should not call that often. Of the reason i wanted her to call me! XD What i meantioned about linked me to a question, which is 'Why she never call me?'. Everytime is like, she miss called me then i call her. It is compulsory that boyfriend call girlfriend? Uhhm.. what i mean is, isnt girlfriend should call her boyfriend too?

Which one you are? (Honestly)

1. You call your boyfriend/girlfriend everyday?

2. You wait for your boyfriend/girlfriend call? None also never mind.

3. You wanted your boyfriend/girlfriend call you but not you call? Reason?

4. Never feel to call even you wanted to talk something else or sweet talk.

5. You think your boyfriend/girlfriend should call but not you?

6. Consider about the phone bills but do call sometime?

7. Only give your boyfriend/girlfriend call sometime(not frequently)? Once 1 week? Or?

8. If not in the list, write out how you think about this. =)

"Sister"

2009-07-04T10:20:00.000+08:00

"Having someone is the matter of WANTING not NEEDING. You don't need someone to complete you, but you want someone to accompany & listen to you all the time. I do need a company of course. In fact, I need a company that makes a grown up boy, not a little boy. A woman that would teach me what L.I.F.E is." Oh Ya! This is cutee~ Hui Yeen! I was wondering why we always feel the same thing in the same time? It is you are my sister? That kind of "no-where-sister"? You know what, when i read your blog, i was like reading my own feeling sometime. Damn cngam! Not once, not twice, is MANY times. Wonder and wonder..

Oh ya, one thing to tell you guys. No more emo blog! Because dont feel like emo some more. Evolution! =D One thing i learnt from her it was Action Speak Louder Than Sound! So no more la ha! =D

Mr. Chairperson

2009-06-30T02:29:00.000+08:00

God! After the meeting, i felt more stress than before. A lot rules applied, because of the stupid MQA! Yea, everybody thought it was a easy job as a chairperson. I thought that way before i was the chairperson. Now i think thing in different. A lot things need to handle well enough. No time to waste, no time to lose! Most department came forward and complaint about no enough time, especially stage design department. But what can i do? I just follow the flow follow the step. Please take a few minutes, go deep deep in your mind and think about my position. It is not an easy post to hold, honestly! Try it when you will know my feeling now. It is i dont know it lack of time? I KNOW! Im trying to make it on time too, why dont you guy understand me, but not just saying this and that? Beside of Odyssey night, i still have a lot of assignments, presentations, homeworks, and some more revision? Totally dont have time for myself, i cant do what i want in this period at all. YA! SWC COMMITTEE! I am the vice chair for SWC, but so what?! I still have to handle orientation night, what do you guys expected from me? Nicole, why dont you appoint somebody to handle the Notice Board stuff? Is just an easy to done job, what for you kept asking me to decorate? As a secretary for Odyssey night, you should know how busy i could be how many thing i need to done. Because of the tiny thing, you come and ask me go and do the thing TOGETHER WITH SWC COMMITTEE?! What the hell is that? As you said, i am the vice chair for the SWC, if i dont do the job then it cant convince any committee to do? I dont say i dont do, i just say after Odyssey night, then what is the problem? You some more say must decorate now?!! Sorry to tell but need to tell also, please la, i have totally no time to ENTERTAIN you about that! Sorry to tell that either. If you guy still think that way and the things still go on with those immature way, i will just pass you the RESIGN letter to you CHAIRPERSON after the Odyssey night! I have totally no hope in SWC anymore! I remember hard the sentence Cindy said in my car when we heading Thai Food restaurant you said "I quite worry about Hory, is he can done his job by Final?". At that moment, i was thinking is there anybody worry for me? Felt so helpless, lonely when i need help? All department face problems, they got some one to find then come to me to ask for solution. When i face problems, who im going to ask help for? Booklet designer? See fong, hory i know. Nobody handle it right? I was thinking to find some one to take the job long LONG time ago, but the matter is about no just simply people can take up the job, the thing that need to done by the job is hard, and complicated. When i face this kind of problems, who im going to search for help? Tell me you guys! In the end, im the only one who work for it! p/s i dont have money to gain, to be a chairperson! If this blog encroach anyone, sorry! I just wanna shout out my things & peace!

V

2009-06-28T22:11:00.001+08:00

Wish to blog about this long time, but have no idea what to write. Ok..
26th of June. The day i wish for long time. Guess what the special about the day? =) 8 minutes! Then it happen, finally we get together! God bless us! Hope it will be a good relation to carry on. Feel so comfortable these days because of you, feel so nice when you are beside me. Just like the way you are around. And i very sorry about your finger! I don't know it will happen, it's very pain! I become so helpless and sad when saw it happen also, i know you in pain now. But i really dont know what can i do to ease the pain. Am i useless? Anyway.. Glad that you are mine now. =)